guys i need help, seriously. ive been confronted by one of my friends about my eating disorder. she knows, my best friend slash roommate knows, and now they’re all like, you need to get treatment, this is bullshit, you deserve to be healthy, blah blah blah. and now i dont know what to do. should i get treatment. should i go inpatient. should i start going to that group my psychiatrist suggested. idk. im kinda freaking out. like, i was happy with the way things were. i’ve even stopped purging a lot. it’s like once a day now, maybe. this is my second day of no purging. i just dont want to gain weight. im already fat and disgusting, the second i gain weight im done and im out. can’t i just switch back to anorexia mode or something? ugh this all sucks. i kind of like the idea of impatient except that it announces to everyone oh hey i have an eating disorder except that i suck at it cause im not even skinny. im just nervous about having to eat 3 whole meals a day. like thats a lot of food to keep down. and im sure ill gain weight and i dont want to gain weight. omg what do i do????
(10.365 // dust)
bitch please i’ve been dieting since i was 12
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